I want to keep my “hand moving” with my writing and not let the momentum drag. So here I am this morning in front of my computer tapping away. Fortunately, the Deck gave up its next card with the topic about writing anything that comes to mind. This is good. I don’t have to scramble to write on a particular prescribed topic.
So what IS on my mind? Lately, I have been musing about why I write. Is it because I think I am any good? No, I will not be a [insert name of your favorite brilliant writer here]. Nor do I want to make a living at it. That ship put to sea a long time ago after a few rejection letters. Is writing therapeutic for me? Sometimes. Thank goodness I write mostly on a computer because I wouldn’t be able to read some of my tear-soaked handwritten journal entries. Is it fun? Not always. Mostly it is a lot of work and I am kind of lazy.
Why then? I guess it is because I am a bit of a narcissist. I admit it. Even though my stats tell me that not a lot of people read my stuff, still there are enough of you with kind supportive comments to inflate my ego and keep me coming back. Thank you.
In all seriousness, I am the type of person that mostly goes unnoticed in life. I have not done great things, I have a quite ordinary day-job and a pretty boring personal life. So this little form of self-expression on this obscure blog is my way of waving at the world and saying “I’m here! Notice me”.
In the movie Practical Magic, Sally writes a letter to her sister where she wonders if she will ever be loved again. For me that is not the line that stands out in this scene. It is rather her next statement: “I want to be seen.” Yes, that’s me. I want to be seen and I want to be heard.