It has been nearly a month since I last posted. It’s mostly because life got in the way. You know how it is. It’s not that I haven’t been writing. I have–in my journal. You know how that is too, if you’re a writer.
As I work through some issues in my personal writing, I’ve noticed something that I want to share with you. It’s a bit odd. Okay, here it is: I think I might be a little preoccupied with tsunami. Yeah, those big, giant waves that destroy everything. Weird, huh?
For many years, since childhood, I have had dreams about great waves sweeping on shore. In the dreams, sometimes I am standing on a high bluff, out of harm’s way. Other times, I am dashed against the rocks at the bottom the bluff by the wave. One particularly vivid dream had me standing in an open field in the wetlands not far from my home. I watched the ocean fill in the entire area stopping just at the steps from my childhood home. The odd thing is that in these dreams I always wake up right before the wave drowns me.
I have accounted for these dreams as an indicator of great anxiety on my part. When my real life fills with anxiety, I can count on a tsunami dream arising in my sleep. Water equals emotions; churning water equals churning emotions; devastating water equals, well, you get it.
So here’s the odd thing: lately I have been manifesting around me images of giant waves. First, I acquired a leather writing journal cover which is etched with the image of Hokusai’s Great Wave. A while back, I purchased a pendant of a stylized wave. Following that I got the earrings to match. About two weeks ago, I came across a YouTube video which demonstrated how someone could draw and paint a Japanese- style wood block print of a giant wave. Naturally, I’ve been doodling and drawing waves too.
So what’s up with that? Does this mean that the anxiety that has caused the dreams all these years is becoming resolved? Or is there something building inside of me that will someday break out like a huge tidal wave wrecking destruction in my life?
I hope I wake up before that happens.