Here’s what happened: This morning I could not sign on to WordPress. The WordPress genie said I was using the wrong login/password information. I tried and tried to get in, and finally worked myself into a panic thinking that someone had hacked my account and changed my password. However, after about twenty minutes, I figured out what I was doing wrong. I was attempting to use a login name that I use for another purpose.
This would not bother me so much except I could have sworn — in fact I did swear to some of my FB buddies — that I was absolutely using the right login information.
I usually don’t do stuff like this. Well, I used to not usually do it. It seems like more and more I am doing dippy things like this.
At first I thought I was just getting old and my memory was going, but one of my FB buddies suggested that it may be that I am more distracted these days. I think she may be right.
I remember in my younger years that I could sit down and read a book for hour after hour. Now my mind wanders after reading about a paragraph and a half. I used to be able to sit still and work on an art project for long periods of time. Now I am jumping up and fooling around with others things. I meditate and even that lately has been difficult to do. I cannot even stay focused on my breath for more than about ten seconds.
Can one acquire Attention Deficit Disorder as an older adult?
I think my problem has a lot to do with being surrounded by too many opportunities for artificial engagement. Before we had television and radio, people sat around and talked and told stories. We engaged with small handfuls of real people. When we acquired television, we only had three or four channels. We were not driven by a hand remote to derive companionship from eleven hundred cable channels of talking heads like we do now. In our leisure time, we did not jump up from listening to music on an ipod to flipping through a library of books on our Kindles. We might have sat quietly and read a real book to the sounds of a crackling fire and a record player playing.
I could certainly blame the technology, but the truth is that the damage is happening because I refuse to unplug myself every once in a while. By not doing so, I am losing my ability to sit and focus. It is a kind of self-inflicted brain damage, I think…..
Huh? What? Sorry, I got distracted.
ljg (c) 2013